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‘NA NAMAN’

Heto na naman ako, at nasasaktan nang dahil sa maling tao. Nandito na naman ako at nagiging sobrang clingy sa taong halos kakakilala ko pa lang.

Nakakainis! Nakakainis, e! Kakakilala ko pa lang naman sa‘yo pero mahal na agad kita. Mahal na agad kita, tangina. Tanginang puso naman ‘to, e. Magmamahal na nga lang sa hindi pa siguradong tao. Nakakapunyeta na nakakaimbyerna!

Nakakainis! Nakakainis na mahal na agad kita! Pakshet. Ngayong dedma mo na lang ako, tangina gusto kong mabaliw at magmura nang magmura. Bakit nandito na naman ako sa ganitong set up? Nagmahal na naman sa taong walang kasiguraduhan.

Nasasaktan nang dahil sa taong kakakilala ko pa lang. PAKSHET! Ang sarap magmura nang magmura paulit ulit. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko. Naiinis ako sa sarili kong nararamdaman. Naiinis ako kung bakit ang bilis kong maattached! NAKAKATANGINA!

Unsent Message #01

“Unsent Message”

Mahal, bakit nagbalik ka pa?

Hindi mo ba alam kung gaano kasakit na..

Kasakit na bigla mo akong ipinagpalit sa iba,

Gaano kasakit na.. Kasakit na bigla mo na lang akong binalewala,

Mahal kung alam mo lang..

Na bawat araw na wala ka sa aking tabi,

Halos mabingi ako sa aking sariling hikbi,

Mahal kung alam mo lang..

Sa bawat oras na lumilipas na nasa piling ka ng iba,

Unti-unti akong nawawalan ng pag-asa..

Pag-asa na magkabalikan tayo..

Pag-asa na meron pang ikaw at ako,

Sa bawat pagngiti mo,

Na ang dahilan ay hindi na ako,

Unti-unting nababasag ang aking puso,

Pusong ni minsan hindi lumingon sa iba,

Kasi ikaw lang sapat na..

Mahal kung alam mo lang kung gaano kita katagal hinintay,

Mahal kung alam mo lang..

Sinubukan ko namang kalimutan ka,

Pero wala akong magawa..

Wala akong magawa kung hanggang ngayon ikaw pa rin talaga,

Wala akong magawa kung hindi ko halos kayang maghanap pa ng iba..

Mahal, bakit ganon?

Nangako tayo sa isa’t isa hindi ba?

Ikaw lang at ako hanggang sa ating huling hininga..

Mahal natatandaan mo ba?

Yung mga katagang ‘Tangina, mahal na mahal talaga kita’?

Yung mga nangingislap kong mga mata tuwing magkasama tayong dalawa?

Nakalimutan mo na ba?

Kasi ako hindi pa.

Mahal, bakit ganon?

Ngayong kahit papaano ay limot na kita..

Mahal,

Bakit nagbalik ka pa?

To The Man..

Blog Post #0005:

To the man who broke my heart..

To the man who tore me apart.

To the man who made me restlessly cry,

To the man who suddenly bid me his goodbye,

To the man who caused me so much pain,

To the man who made me wait in vain,

To the man who gave me false hope,

To the man who I thought worth the fight,

To the man, the reason I’ve been crying all night,

To the man whose promises remain unfulfilled,

To the man who thought was my human shield,

To the man who gave me so much good memories to remember,

To the man who promised me his forever..

Thank you, for this one last time. I hope you’re already fine. You became my eye opener. You gave me a lot of reasons to be a better person. For myself. And for the next man I will ever love again.

Love,

The Woman Whose Heart You Recently Broke

TEMPORARY

Blog Post #0004: “Sometimes you just have to accept the fact that some people enter your life as a temporary happiness..”

Masakit man, may mga tao talaga sa buhay nating bigla na lang na mawawala. in terms of death.. or due to changes. Having a temporary happiness in your life sucks. Kasi alam mong hanggang doon na lang yon. Hanggang doon na lang ang kasiyahang maibibigay nila sa’yo. Masakit man, pero kailangan nating tanggapin.

WE CAN’T TELL EVERYONE TO STAY IN OUR LIFE. And that’s the fucking painful truth the world will ever hold against us.

Some will decide to stay, some will soon walk away. Minsan nga napapaisip ako, paano kapag iyong mga taong bigla na lang na umalis sa buhay ko ay mas piniling manatili, may magbabago kaya? Will I ever be happy again like how I used to? Will I ever still get the chance to meet the people I knew right now before they had left me?

Kapag ba mas pinili nilang manatili noon ganito pa rin ba ako kasaya ngayon? O may mas isasaya pa ba ako?

Surely sometimes, I feel like wanting them back. Gone bestfriends. Gone childhood friends. Only memories left.

Pero naisip ko rin.. Some people just really give us temporary happiness sometimes. Gustuhin man natin o hindi, dadating din ang araw na mawawala din sila. Because they chose to. They chose to leave rather than staying. All they left us were just memories to be treasured. Memories of them before they totally left.

Pero sa kabila ng lahat.. masaya pa rin ako. Kasi ni minsan dumaan sila sa buhay ko. Kasi ni minsan naging masaya ako kasi naging parte sila ng buhay ko. They were once my happiness. But now that they’re gone, I guess the only thing that’s left for me to do is to just treasure the memories they left. Maybe that’s all that matters.

‘I MISS YOU’

Blog post #0001:

I miss you. Everyday of my life, I badly miss you. Your giddy laugh, your smile, your voice.. No matter how far and long time can take me, I still miss you. I wish you know I’m always praying and hoping that wherever you are right now, you’re already safe and sound. I know one day we’ll get the chance to meet again. But for now, all I just wanted to say is that.. I miss you, always and everyday.